Thursday, August 17, 2006

 

كيف تفرق بينهم؟

اليوم أشعر بالحزن ولكن قادرة أن أرى الجمال الذي يختبىء وراءة.

صديقي يهمس لي "يوجد خط رفيع بين الحزن والسكون"

لا أستطيع أن أفرق الان!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

 

Time for the "In"

Been going out, meeting people, travelling, and hosting friends...etc. It was all about the word "out". Now, I feel it's time to go "in". Would love to sit at home all the time and read, read then read... maybe write, but all alone... Just with me!

I just feel my brain is hungry and been idle or going in similar circles for sometime now while my body and soul were taking the most of the share. I don't regret it because it was needed, but now I feel the equation needs to be switched, at least, for the time being.

Hope I can do it, but after my visitng friend leaves in few days!!

So the next call I get saying: "Would you like to go out for..."
My answer would be: "No, thanks. I'd rather stay 'in'"

Saturday, October 22, 2005

 

are they gone forever?

Pathetic when you share your feelings with a bunch of buttons and a glass object that bathe your face with light when you're soaked in the darkness of your surrounding.
Why do I have to talk to get it across? I want someone to feel what I feel without having to talk... Hug me without having to ask!
I was thinking that when we lose someone, we feel sadness, but then the memories stay with us as long as we WANT them, but what if we lose the memories when we DON'T WANT to? Well, you still have the "someone" but in a different way and under a different shadow - not light!. Shall I wait till I have new memories? or shall I stop keeping them to avoid going through the possibility of losing them again? Can the future replace the past?
Well, we lose a lot as we go and as we grow, but we forget and when we remember, we can't help but feel sad or nostalgic!
So here I go, sharing my thoughts with the bunch of buttons and the mixture of light & darkness while recording some memories, that I hope I wouldn't lose one day!

Thursday, October 20, 2005

 

ركزوا شوية بأة

جاتلي كام فكرة وموضوع حلوين أوي بس للأسف نسيتهم! يا ترى ليه بيحصل كده؟

Friday, October 14, 2005

 

Sweet Dreams!

Have you ever had a dream that summarized your life? where you stand now? and maybe what you should do next? I had one last night and it put me in a very strange mood when i woke up. Silence and reflection.
I looked up dreams and the interesting fact is that we all dream at night many dreams - the same frequency per amount of sleep, but the reason why we, sometimes, think we didn't is because the memory fades. Kollo maktoub hena
So... there's nothing as "I never dream" or "I have very few dreams"
I always wanted to learn techniques on how to remember my dreams because I believe they have a lot of messages and deep insights till one day a wise woman told me "life is full of signs that we need to pay attention to. You don't have to seek them in your dreams!"
Sweet dreams although the others tell much more ;-)

 

Quote! Give it a thought keda...

When the world pushes you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

 

Another Handِِ

Today, it happened again! As if reminding me or making sure that I have "TO DO" something... Either fall, rise or float. However, despite it looked like a harmful hand, i feel it's pushing me up. It brought something out of me... Something I wasn't sure I had or not sure if I was capable of. True! We're very interesting creatures! Always exploring and discovering. Today, I felt my fire!

 

بين السما والأرض.... بين الصحو والنوم

عارف لما تكون فعلاً محتاج تنام؟بتدخل في مرحلة غريبة جداَ. أنا ماببقاش عارفة إذا كنت صاحية ولا نيامة ولازم أركز عشان أحدد إني لسه في حالة الوعي. المهم بما إني حسة بكده دلوقتي فقررت أكتب وأقول (فبل أن أدخل في اللاوعي) إني أعتقد بل متأكدة أن هذه اللخظات هي من أصدق وهي أقرب ما تكون من ذاتك وحقيقتك. بتكون على طبيعتك تماما من غير فلاتر الوعي. أنا نمت!!

Monday, October 10, 2005

 

Pushing Hand

I'm always reluctant to post. Sometimes shy, most of time feel I won't be adding anything to anyone; all the time feeling writing isn't my thing. I don't have the gift of writing, I know. I'm better with pictures, I guess ;-) However, what encouraged me to write today is seeing my blog on top of a list recommended by a friend. Etkasaft and said to myself... Ekhs, I have to write something although there isn't something particular in my mind.
So a month ago, I asked a friend to help me make this blog more useable by me. Something to accomodate to my limited skills and what I'm capable of sharing e.g. pictures, inspiring words, interesting announcements and some posts bardo maydorresh! But seems that my follow-up skills aren't much different than my writing ones.
Funny what I'm writing - very simple, superficial and ay kalam although today was a tough day for me... A turning point, maybe! What you think bad might turn out to be the best or, let's say, the very thing you needed. I can see it now!! It's like standing on the edge of a cliff and suddenly comes a hand that pushes you forcefully towards the nowhere leaving you no choice of leaving this edge that you've been clinging to for so long. However, you have the choice of either to fall OR to fly! (I told you I'm better with visualization)
Now you have all kinds of scenarios. You can be the kind of person who'd fall and enjoy being a victim "someone (not me) pushed me"; or you can fly and say "look at brave me! I decided to fly". You can just be indifferent and just leave yourself in the hands of the wind... either to push you up, pull you down or keep you floating.
Of course you could've chosen to have your legs rooted where you were standing or not allowing anybody or any "hand" to be around you, in the first place. Do you think this is possible?
Anyway, I'm grateful for today's hand!

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